I've exhausted myself by doing nothing. My father and I picked up his car from Connecticut today. That drive is draining. An hour and a half each way...and we went just to come straight back. It's time for me to go back to Buffalo. I love being home sometimes...seeing my friends (Desmond, Yasmin, Crystal, Steph, Chery, etc.) but at the same time...I hate being bitched at every day...getting told I'm selfish everyday, getting treated like I'm irresponsible because I got into a car accident, like I'm not the one who went through it...like I haven't beaten up myself enough already.
Women wonder why men can sit and ignore the things around them, things that are said, things that are done...No one can stand being nagged at, bitched at, or blamed ALL THE TIME. Eventually most of us grow a switch which we just turn on and tune out. Women do this too if they've gone through enough blame and bitching but it happens to men more than women. So next time your boyfriend seems like he's tuning you out (or your girlfriend) take a step back...find out why he/she is being a rude bastard and fix it like a couple should. Don't be a nagger either...no one likes that shit.
Reading over what I just wrote, that's a hell of a thought for just waking up. Sometimes free-writes can help...their not the organized "story" writing that I usually like to do but it helps to write down the way I'm feeling. I can reflect a lot better and it helps me to get over whatever I'm pissed off about. If your reading this...just remember that you don't have to take writing classes to write...you just need a story and some determination. Sigh...now I'm not tired...shit.
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