Just Second Best...

Ever felt that you were someone's number two? It sucks...it's not the best feeling in the world...and admittedly I put myself in that position a lot in order to keep myself at a distance from running into "relationships" that I'd rather just keep at a "hooking up" level. At the same time though...there are the select few, that I wish I wasn't second best, that I want to put them at the top of my list. I want to be loved and to love someone. When you get shoved to the side...for someone else...it's an awful feeling. In the end I do want the people that I truly care about to just be happy, no matter what that means, but sometimes, I just wish that one of them was happy with me. =(